July 25th

Dear MJ

It's been 5 years and 1  Months since you left us, There is not a day when I don't think of you. I will always love and miss you. 

I started liking you back in 2008, even though I was already enjoying your music over the years. As you know I  had this  love hate thing going on over the years. It was a normal thing. I wasn't nasty in anyway.

I was planning on buying your music  back  in early 09 but I wanted to wait. When I meant I wanted to wait til you were on tour NOT had died.  Hearing  that you had died shocked me and yet I am not over it.

I don't think I will get over you or your death. Infact I never will get over it. I think it's because you were  part of my life the whole time and I never realized it til it was too late.  

Not only it has been 5 years, but finding friends out of this  was something. All I wanted to do was send my condolence to your fans and family. But upon your passing I could not stop thinking about your fans.

I ended hanging around them and becoming friends with them. When I first started talking to them I said something by accident. I never meant it to come across that way. She told me to do some research. 

Being around the Net for 18 years, I doubt  I want to do research you can't always trust the net these days there aren't as reliable. Which is why I rely on your fans for the  truth. The Media a useless they know nothing to be honest. 

Then July 7th (8th at 3 am) I watched  your memorial service. I learnt  alot that day and thought you should never have gone through what you went through. It was not right.  I wish you never met that family.

But that day I loved you more than I ever did. I love you forever and for always.